Thursday, October 22, 2009 ♥ 2:51 AM
~Playlists also tells stories~
Then I realized that the playlist saved within my mp3 player was actually telling a story.
A story that revolved around you. With songs that did not concerned you ( meaning you had yet to enter my life ) filling up the first few dozen on the list. As the list goes on and on, so does my story.
From the moment I met you, the minute you entered my heart and filled it.
To the moment I felt happiest as you stayed in my heart.
And then as the list went on, I started to tear... Under the rain, the raindrops hid my tears.
It was time to reach the songs that filled my heart in your absence.
The songs that told stories about the time you injured my heart, causing it to bleed like mad from the inside suddenly, to the time when you forced yourself out of my heart.
Each of these songs told their own personal painful experiences without you around. The songs, they never stopped, the more I scrolled, the more my heart ached.
From the depressing song that you asked me to listen to ( Breathe ), to the song that I wished you would remember me by ( 如果我变成回忆 ).
They only bring back memories of you. A lot of memories. Today turned out to be a sad and emo day for me. And it's not like I can sort out the songs in my mp3 player. It's order is permanent unless I remove the songs and store them inside again.
"I don't think I would like to changed the order anyway." my heart is telling me now.
Alas, I had reached the songs that barely affected my life nor heart ever since you left.
( It's alright, It's Okay )
( If You Were Here Tonight )
( What Do I Do )
( Maybe )
and many other songs. They were suppose to cheer me up, but no. Not today. I found that I've lost myself. I don't know what or who to be, without you around.
Just for today, at least I know for today only,
I'll let my memories consume me. My heart. My soul.
