Saturday, September 5, 2009 ♥ 8:11 AM
I woke up this morning, knowing it's been the third night in a row that I have dreamt of her.
Why!? At times like these, when I'm trying to forget, why do I have to dream of things that hurt me most!?
Is there something I've not done? Am I still stuck!?
Just few nights ago, I was super happy to receive this msg:
Louise -Compared with previous nights, tonight you're actually euphoric. Hahaha. Night. :)
-Excessively happy. I much prefer this euphoric Kian Seong. Haha. Night.
I thought I had gotten over it mostly. I thought, for once, I could have led the normal life like usual. The one where she wasn't in it. I lied to myself.
Friday evening, I limped my way back home. My left knee got twisted or dislocated. Some shit like that. Each time I make high jumps or run as fast as I could to rescue the ball from reaching the outside boundaries, I push my left leg.
It's my first and only option for acceleration and jumping. Quite a lot of people cared for my leg, asked me not to run so much.
THANK YOU ALL!!! But, if I don't run, I won't ever get the joy of playing thrilling basketball, I'd be a burden to all my teammates.
AND because, I DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT HERE...
On my way back, I had to pass by another basketball court. As I was walking through the grass, I noticed something pinkish caught my eye. I looked on the ground. Feng Ling Hua. A gust of wind blew and pretty soon most of the flowers that grew on the tree fell off.
A miracle. She once told me that the flowers only bloom once a year.. It bloomed twice this year. Funny huh. She was the one that found out about it and told me the name of it. And after that, I called her dumb and stupid. I regretted. The barren tree had most of its flowers on the ground now, leaving behind dried, balding branches...
When did the flowers grow? Why hadn't I noticed? It must've shown how deep I had been in my thoughts till I had forgotten my surroundings.
I wonder how my sleep will turn out tonight. Frankly speaking, somethings, the more you try to forget, the more you'll remember.
" Memories are never forgotten. They are only hidden. "
And I wished that I could turn back time, and hope you were still here with me..
I can only wish. Under the resonance of the full moon.
