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Sunday, August 2, 2009 ♥ 8:49 PM

失去你的第天, 心里(心里仍是不安)

This morning I woke up in my sweat. I had several nightmares last night. Few. Some contained her. Some with other people.

Just the night before I went to pasar malam to have dinner on my own. Just when I thought it was going to get boring, I met Yi Ran. Yay? XD Since two years back, I have not seen my senior d..

(picture taken three years back)

She reli changed alot. That's wat I thought at first. Her appearance was different only. Her attitude, pretty much the same. So we chatted like two old people meeting each other again.

Then I popped the question.

"Got any boyfriend?"

She paused for a moment. The hesitation told me that she was wondering how to answer me.

"No..." She said.

It's most probably that she was hurt before in a relationship. Maybe it was something she did not want to talk about. I felt sad for her. She's like my Jie Jie. I felt bad for asking her that.

"What about you leh?" She asked me back.

"The Pan Mee here nice ar?" I changed the topic and I'm sure she sensed that I felt uncomfortable talking about it. So we changed subject.

She companied me till I finished my dinner. Thanks. Yi Ran. =)

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I was quite sad to know that she was left alone by her best friend. Or ex-best friend. The two of them rarely talked. It's like me now. I rarely talk to my best friend too. Or there is barely even a need to anymore.

But I really do hope that she knows that there are people who reli care about her and will be there for her whenever she's down.

I WILL BE THERE WHENEVER SHE NEEDS ME..

But i cannot guarantee i'm able to make her happy. That's wat makes me sad the most. I can only wonder how much sorrow I can bring when she talks to me. When she's down, I have to always be strong for her. To always shower her with love and smiles and make her happy. Even though she's no longer mine. I hate it but I have to accept it I guess...

I have to be matured and take care of her feelings while I'd most likely abandon mine. That's me, Kevin. The self-centered Kian Seong is long gone...

I know there's nothing I can do to make her change her mind. There's always a very sharp pain in my heart when I think bout it now. A sharper pain compared to before. It feels like I've been stabbed. It really is that bad. Or maybe it was my weak heart from the start.

Let's
put it this way.

~I'm Kevin with Kian Seong's heart inside me...~

I hope she'll just let me be there for her now. At least for another half a year. Before I go overseas to further studies. That time it'll be her boyfriend or best friend's job to take care of her. We can only live once..

So live it happily. Let your smiles take care of things.


=)

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