Friday, August 7, 2009 ♥ 6:38 AM
This morning, I think at about 2am... I woke up with a very sharp stinging pain in my heart. Chest or heart, I can't really tell.
I rolled on the bed time after time till I couldn't take it. I dropped to the floor and continued rolling on it with my hands clutched on my chest..
The coldness of the floor eventually seeped into me I think.
It got better and then I knew my heart was beating very fast and I was gasping for breath...
I climbed back onto my bed and slept it off...
Been playing guitar for a few nights without any pick. My fingers are bleeding a little d.. But the serene tune resonates in my heart...
At about 5.30am, I automatically woke up with the pain still there. But it was way better. I asked myself if this pain was caused emotionally or physically?
I HAVE NO ANSWER.
Today it made me feel weird during morning. I was paying attention during class when it started raining heavily. And immediately it struck me. I wan very concerned for her. Without hesitation, I messaged her asking how she was...
She told me she practised in the rain. I felt two things on the spot.
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1. She's strong enough to go through it, I shouldn't worry.
2. She's going to get ill...
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I don't know which part of myself to beliv in. But part of me was telling me to trust the first point. And I did..
[ Uh, then something happened during English lesson... Reli reli stupid... Not gonna say... ask me in person if you want to noe... ]
After that went pool (similar to snooker) in AC. I tried to release my anger by whacking the balls as hard as I could. There was suppose to be badminton.. But then everyone came at 3pm when the actual time was 2pm. Great leh? Malaysian timing...
After that, we went and played from 4.30pm to 6pm at Taman Megah court.
At first, I played strokes for a while and den d pain came back. Wah, straight away sit down and rest. But after that the pain totally disappeared and I only played strokes for the rest of the time...
The pain never came back.
Den had dinner with them before going back.
~I'm sorry I played. But I promised them I'd go. I minimized my movements, so don't worry alright? ~
I was so worried when she told me she was feeling unwell. Was it the run in the rain? I really hope so.. Then it will just be a small problem. I reli hope you're alright. I'm gonna pray now and wish you all the best...
MESSAGE TO HER : Please take care of urself k?
There's no pain in my heart now... Not yet? I'm not sure. =) But I might be coming down with sore throat...
I typed this during maths... Sorry, name shall be unknown... =) Good nights...
