Wednesday, August 5, 2009 ♥ 8:02 AM
失去你的第十二天， 心里（充满遗憾)
Last night, I messaged two of my friends. J and L.
I asked, "Do you two (u n ur **) still talk after d break up?"
J : Yes. But even if we do, it'll last 5 mins. There's nth in common between us... I won't give shit to a guy who doesn't care bout me.
L : We only say hi. Tat's as far as it gets.
Wow... nice.. So this is the ending of break-ups huh. It's reli depressing to see them this way. J broke up becoz the guy couldn't commit. L's reason was becoz she couldn't see any future with him at all.
Future? L said something that reli hit me where it hurts...
"Girls tend to think bout the future more den guys. Guys only live in the present.."
I cannot tell u it's wrong. But I have thought about the future. But as soon as I did, it ended before my eyes.
And now, I'm seeing how two friends who reli hope to be close again ignoring one another.
Oh dear moon, you're so round tonight... Can you just fulfill my wish? I wish that the two of them will get back together. I don't mind if you take anything from me, including my life. I know, miracles don't happen, I'd have to act at some point. But I don't know if I can do it.
One wants me out of her life. The other wants me to be there for the first one, but she won't take the responsibility of patching things up.
Let me point this out, I cannot leave seeing you this way... I'm sure that every person who's fallen in love with another would want what's best for the other. And I want you to live normally like before.
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This evening, I witnessed a friend of mine, named E. He hung up a small girl's shoes on a tree. And the small girl sat aside alone. Very lonely, she was sad, almost about to cry. Lucky her uncle came and stopped E. He's 17 now, why doesn't he know how to care for her feelings? in fact he's quite spoilt. He is nice to kids, but does not always consider their feelings.
At that time, I reli felt like going there to scold him. But...
Screw it! He doesn't deserve my time. I went to take care of the girl first. While her uncle got her shoes back for her. It might have ended in an argument if I went...
I just don't know now. With someone like him around, I'm just worried he would influence those around him. Especially since I'm never with him, I cannot stop him...
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I feel so useless. I'm gonna sleep now and erase my sadness for the day. Tomorrow is going to be a brand new day.. Moon, please grant me my wish. Thank you. =)
