Monday, August 3, 2009 ♥ 6:14 PM
失去你的第
一天， 心里（崩溃)I asked. Is it really true that you have replaced me in your heart?
You said I can think it that way if I want.
Why must you always make it tough for me.
"You'll get used to it without me soon..."
"Someone will replace me..."
Do you know every word.... no.... every single alphabet actually tears my heart apart? bit by bit. I lose myself, I try not to cry over it. I hold it in.
The worst part is, I let my heart do all the suffering, taking in all the burden.
By day, I may seem emotionless, occasionally smiling once or twice. But during the night, I'm Kian Seong. My heart crumbles every night as I hug my pillow tightly, with my phone in the other hand.
DO YOU THINK THAT PEOPLE ARE REPLACEABLE? DO YOU EVEN TREASURE LIFE? UR FEELINGS AND OTHERS?!
YOU ALWAYS BLAME ME FOR BEING SACRIFICIAL, AREN'T YOU DOING THE SAME? BUT MINE IS PHYSICALLY. YOURS IS EMOTIONALLY. YOU'RE AVOIDING AND IGNORING YOUR FEELINGS...
"Neh. I'm fine."
"I'm really fine."
These messages... I don't know why but they can never convince me that you are alright.
I have no more strength left to type. I'm emotionally drained and weakened. Every word I type hurts myself more than it may hurt you.
Today is going to be a rainy day... I hope the moon will bless me.
