Confessions of a Murderer

Being a redrum member, I’m totally attracted to the word “special”. No la… This has nothing to do with being a member. I like the term special, being special and loving special. Special, doesn’t mean academic excellence or physically endurable. Doesn’t mean you can play the piano or hack a . But obtaining something that few have. Not like buying old artifacts, ancient items that there’s none other like that in the world. But like being able to do something that many others can’t. For instance, Frisbee. Not many ppl see the game with passion and love like I do. It is not very common in Malaysia, people tink it’s a dogs game. But I beg to differ. I am willing to go all out for it. Diving and stuff. Just to get the disc. Injured my back today. SEE de DEDICATION?

Besides that, I have the need to find quality and plot when going to watch a movie.

Shows like , , or any other superhero flicks do not entertain me. They are boring and meaningless. I like spoofs thou, just for a laugh. U noe… Scary Movie shows like that.

, , , are examples of wonderful shows that give meaning to life. It is the “thing” in these movies that attract me, makes me feel that they’re special. Their story shows a lot of meaning to the current situation in public life. How fatal illnesses cannot conquer and triumph over the hope of a person. How coaches are able to bring up a group of basketball playing gangsters into real man. How lovers feel when they are separated. These shows questions our everyday life and society. These are the shows that people shud watch and not those stupid shows like Pokemon those type.

Here’s a intro for all u anime fans out there. Gintama is a ongoing anime in Japan, currently 100++ episodes. It is a very funny and lame anime yet it uses the latest topics and hot issues as part of its plot in the anime. There are times when the stupid idiotic character will turn into a nice caring, very geng man. Just watch la… Bet you’ll be hooked to it like I am.

I like music in a special way. I’m not like all those idiots out there. Linkin Park, Simple Plan, Rihanna or any other International Singers and stuff. All the soothing and annoying songs. I listen to them, sing to the tune, but these are not the songs that gets my life going. BGM, those are the songs. Background Music is wat reli drives my adrenalin. How many of you played Ragnarok or any other online games for their BGM music and not dominating monsters or creatures all over the map. I bet not many, but I do. I could just put my Hunter to sit down in Prontera Town all day listening to the music while chatting with other characters. I’ve met a few who has the same interest as me, but I’ve lost their contact now. How many of you ever paid attention to the music in ur anime’s or movies. The music that is played whenever something stupid or funny happens. Do you know how much effort was needed to compose extraordinary vocalless music yet unrecognized by a lot of people. It’s always, what’s the title for the opening or ending of Naruto, Bleach? This reli annoys me. So you better not ask me about it the next time.

Besides that, I like people who are special and mysterious. Well, for instance, today’s Frisbee competition. There was this red-shirt girl from Pirates. She was wearing a red cap. She played quite well exep for her limited stamina. Her ability to receive, pull and block the disc was exceptionally good for a girl. The cap that hid her face made her more mysterious. But she looked average la, of coz I saw her take of her cap la though. It’s noon and it’s burning at 30++ celcius. And her English accent, is what I like to hear. It’s not the usual British or Canadian English. It’s special, with a bit mixture of, well, some other accent la.. I din say I like her. I just say that she’s special. Dun get me wrong yea.

There are a lot of people who want to grow up and become famous in the world. Like Billy Gates. No offence, thanks for the Microsoft thing. But, being famous gives a lot of problems. There are some who want to lead a normal life. There are some who duwan to continue life and are suicidal. I, unlike those faggots, have chosen to take another path, down the special road. I do not want to be famous nor lead a dull and boring life. I want to live life with friends who will recognize me as someone who has affected their lives for the better, who had helped dem in need, who was special to them. That is my main point of living. That is what I remind myself every morning, yet fail to complete coz of my ego and temper. Yet, I duwan anyone to recognize me as the librarian, Kevin or Ayori, the emo guy, the Ketua Data dude, the guy who just ponteng class for 2 weeks coz of MSSM, the Frisbee freak (I play basketball too, ok?),nerd, the pimpled guy, the cold joke fella, the try-to-impress-but-made-a-joke-of-himself idiot, the bachelor (wish I weren’t) the angry scary dark fella, the jerk, the asshole…

But I want people to recognize me for who I am and have always been.

I want people to remember me as Kian Seong.

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